Girls, girls, girls....101

So tonight was a prime example of what a girlfriend would offer me; someone to do something with. Now Scott and I cruised, which was fun, but we didn't know what to do, normally we go somewhere, but today we literally cruised for the two and a half hours. It was fun, but the stars were oh so bright and I'd have loved, as would he, to have been snuggling with a girl- in his case Hannah- under the stars. So we talked about girls.
I don't know what the hell I want. It appears my motives behind girls are not the same as other guys in school. The thought of having sex with anyone at school didn't even register as a reason to get into a relationship, nor did it even cross my mind that once in a relationship I'd ever get to that point. I'm not in the least bit ready for anything physical like that. So the question is, if I want to date someone, how do I go about it? It appears my making friends with girls, finding out how great they are, then liking them doesn't ever work. So I need to get into something with a less-known friend/acquaintance. Now the question is with whom? All of the girls who fit into that category I don't picture myself dating. Some of the ones I think of as physically attractive aren't my type and wouldn't be good matches. And others I've never thought to want a relationship.
I don't know what to do. I need a girl who is a lot like me. Where we'd mesh extremely well and wants what I want. But wait, I don't know what i want, thats a problem. What the heck is a girlfriend anyways? Is it just a title? As I've heard it means you've got the friendship connection and then there is the physical part that separates it from normal friends. But I can't picture myself kissing any of these girls, or any in general. All I seem to want is cuddling, and lots of that. But it appears that friends can sort of do that, some times, good times. So why did I want to mess up those friendships by saying I wanted a relationship? What more would it give me? All I had to ask is if they loved me then, right? Because if I don't want anything physical past cuddling, and just want to be loved, and cared for, then friends can cover that. Yet, I didn't feel friends were enough, so I don't know. And I thought girls were messed up.
Well, maybe I'd like to be kissed. I don't think I want to make any moves. I want them to initiate them, and thats not going to happen. If a girl came up to me and said, "I love you David" and then kissed me, I'd be pretty happy. Unless it was someone I didn't know. I absolutely suck as making moves. In fact, if anyone likes me right now, which I don't think, but if they do, I'm not aware. I'm very clueless, I like to imagine all the girls like me, but thats sure not to be the case. And if I did know I don't know how I'd react, but I probably don't have the same feelings because I'm caught up in this stupid mess. Thats unfair, I want these girls I like to stop liking who they do, and like me, yet if I were in their shoes, I couldn't. I'm a hypocrite. I can't do this anymore, I'm going to sleep. I need to straighten this crap out.
Side note, this is my 101st blog. I missed numero one hundred because my stupid profile isn't counting them right, so I have to count them, and the best way to do that is to display 50 at a time. So now I'm on my third page of 50's, making this 101. Thats pretty neat. I got interviewed for this beast today as well. Thats right, 101 different entries, plenty of great bathroom reading, I ought to compile all of these sometime and make a book. YEAH! That'd sell I'm sure.