I submit my incentive is romance...

Today was a very music oriented day. I got up and Jake and I began to play jam a bit, not really accomplishing anything in particular, but trying our best to sound good. The thing is, we both don't know enough about our instruments to get them to sound awesome with one another and we both can't sing. Thats a really crappy thing. I know if I could sing it would make guitar playing about five thousand times more enjoyable and rewarding. If I could get my voice to sound half-way decent I would be able to make up songs, and hopefully perform them for people without feeling embarrassed for just playing guitar when all of these of great musicians can sing too. Then later in the day I was listening to the radio, and this might sound stupid, but I finally actually thought of the effort that goes into the music I am listening to. On a daily basis music is being played on multiple radio stations for several hours. All of this music had to be written, performed, perfected, recorded, and then accepted. I haven't even gotten to the first part, and thats really frustrating. I have been playing for almost 2 years I think, and I can't write good stuff, or play cool riffs, or make sweet solo's, and that sucks. I want to be good and come up with a song. Who knows how long that will take.
Today was also the first time I listened to rap seriously for a long time. Normally its just background noise in some people's car, or at the dance, but today I actually listened to it myself. "College Drop-out" by Kanye West was the selection. Its pretty good. The CD has a whole theme which is always really neat and it was pretty interesting to get a intro into his life. Its not like the rock I listen to where it doesn't really have to do with anything in particular, or at least that i can tell of, it actually is about him. He mentioned the fact that he got into some car accident and almost died, he looks to Jesus for all his answers, and everything thought he sucked but he showed them. its interesting to see how this apparently religious guy talks about sex and drops the f*bomb quite frequently. I wasn't particular affected by the constant swearing, which says something, I appreciated the style of music for once; for the fact that this guy can write lyrics that tell a story, rhyme in a free flow way. It truly is impressive. Now not all rappers are such, but he and Jay-Z I like. Now back to more listening, goodnight.

And then he said, "We shall have a Christmas Break" and so we did

Finally, I have been looking forward to this break for several days. Today was the least worthwhile day of school ever. I didn't pay attention in any class I went to, and I didn't do anything in any class I went to. The highlight of the day was getting kicked out of Powell's class for leaving my assignment at home, that guy's an ass. He was a freaking jerk, but thats cool, I like not having to listen to him for a period, so I went to the choir room and enjoyed cake. Overall the school day was excellent because I didn't care and not caring is such an easy way to go through long days. I enjoyed the choir sing the Christmas songs and got to see the peeps from college. Very nice!
Afterschool Becky came over and we watched tv. We watched Oprah, and made fun of her then entire time. She says stuff that is just ridiculous, like, "This is my favorite thing.....I have eleven at home.....the retail value is over four thousand dollars!" Basically, I am a rich woman who can afford everything and oh yeah, I love teachers! She is ridiculous.
Then I ate and went to the Uptons house to chill with their family. We watched a movie called, "The Shower" about these local bath houses in China or something and it was all in subtitles. It was pretty cool, I enjoyed it. Then Anneliese came over and we hung out and read this book full of quotes from people about life and pictures of animals that related. Thats on my list of things to do in my lifetime; say something that someone will put in a book of cool quotes. Then I can home, the end!
I really enjoyed today and look forward to Mexico in a few days. Super rad. I also am happy with the quality and quantity of my hugs lately. I have been giving super good ones. So you will want to get up on that as soon as you can. Goodnight.

Its that time again.....

The time to remember that we only have one measly day until break, and that day is not much of a day at all! YES! I am so excited for tomorrow, it means that I won't have to pay attention and learn because no teacher in their right mind would try to, its just not going to happen. Then I have a fantastic weekend until I leave for the best vacation I will have in a long time. Its going to be super nice weather, and super nice beach. Those two blend very well, not to mention all the ladies I am sure to meet.
Today was another uneventful day, I had Muir in Human Bio so I left and applied to UO, so thats out of the way, YES!. I played around with the Cross Country page in Yearbook, adding little bits with my name. I think any page I can get a hold of I am going to write my name, or something really small in a non-descript place kind of like a Wheres Waldo book, it will be fun. Then I had AP Gov, which dragged on and I drew pictures.
After school I went out to get flowers for Mrs. Koehler since it was her birthday tonight. Jeff is quite possibly the slowest person on the face of the earth, the entire ordeal of going out, getting money and flowers and the cards, and delivering them to her, seeing Anneliese and the family, then coming home took three or so hours. Way the freak too long. I could have been done in 45. Oh well. Then I went to the choir/band winter concert and was impressed. We have really talented kids at our school. I really wish I sang well and could do choir, thats one thing I want to do in my lifetime, get good at singing. I think it would make life more enjoyable and I could woo the ladies with the guitar and vocals mix. Tonight was good, I went hug-crazy and gave everyone hugs, good ones too, not the crappy kind. So if you didn't see me you missed out. Now I'm going to bed, Peace!

Everything is fine

Hello everyone, and sorry for my attitude the other day. It is off-based and only because I was not thinking about it well enough, of which I have now, and can discuss. I Spent that night, it was two nights ago for last night I fell asleep early but thats for later. Anyways, I thought about it and came to the conclusion that in the spectrum of life, this ordeal of mine would be nothing. I will no doubt forget it in a year, or so, and thus life will go on. Things are better now, I think it makes it easier and more simple now. I don't have to think about anything. Everyone is a friend and there is no one that I have more feelings for. So this is good. I can enjoy everyone just the same and I like that. I saw Becky, well yesterday too, but today, and things are fine. I gave her a hug and she gave me a flower. Life is good. I am really excited for Mexico, it will be extremely fun and I can't wait- 5 DAYS!!!
Yesterday wasn't too exciting, other than me realizing that stuff I before mentioned it is not exciting. I did however fall asleep before 8, only to wake up at 7 this morning and get to school for canned food. Man oh man! I didn't go to a single class today because of this canned food deally. I counted cans all day- 12,088 to be exact- well I didn't count them all, but a freaking huge portion. Alas that 12K wasn't enough Century beat us again, this time 13K. But the competition doesn't matter, the fact that the hungry citizens of Hillsboro will be eating this Holiday. Thank you everyone for the help! Good Work. I'm out.

Batting a thousand

I don't have much to say tonight. Its not a great one. I am feeling overwhelmingly stressed over, after looking into what is causing it, only minor things. I feel like I don't have enough time to do what I want because i try to do other things to please others. Sorry, but I am not doing musical, and I won't be doing anymore of that tap class. I know its probably 75% my mood, but I can't deal with everything right now. I don't mean to sound self-ish, but I want a break.
I also told another girl I liked her, and she wasn't a rebound liking or whatever because things didn't work out with Anneliese, its true feelings. Alas, the outcome was the same. Thus, my senior year, and entire High School career stats come out to be 1.00 failure, for those of you who are unfamiliar with baseball stats, 1 is one hundred percent, which makes sense if you think about it. Fantastic

P is for Party

Yesterday was the big day, Winter Formal. I got nice and dressed up in my Goodwill suit and tie, and my date, Allison Bertelson looked very nice in her ancient Roman style dress. We went to Marrakesh, a Moroccan restaurant in portland. The restaurant was awesome, the food was really good, the atmosphere was good, and they had a belly dancer which made for an interesting time. The only down side was the seating. You had to sit on this little tiny cushions on the floor and it wasn't incredibly comfortable, especially in a suit. It really wasn't too bad though, you didn't think much about it during most of dinner, just initially.
After dinner we booked it home, because as usually, we were over an hour late. I don't know why people continue to set reservations for so late at night, but it always happens and we also get shorted on the dance time. Once we got to the dance, it was even more awesome. I shook it like that polaroid picture, I didn't mind the low volume of the music, what I did mind was that everyone complained making it less fun to be dancing. I also lost Allison about 50 times. I was able to find her during the slow songs, and stay near her for a short period after that. She is a pretty girl that Allison Bertelson, and after she was done all up, even more beautiful. I also got to dance with two other gorgeous ladies; Becky and Anneliese. I enjoyed all of that and then we cleaned up and went to Jeff's.
At Jeff's we watched Casablanca, perfect for the night seeing as how the theme was just that. Things died down during that time, people left and such, and once the movie was over- and it was a good one- everyone left. I stayed and cleaned up then stayed the night. But before i went to bed i went outside because I had noticed earlier that the stars were really bright but I couldn't recognize a single constellation! I was sad because i took astronomy last year but none of it stayed with me. Thats when I needed Christine, so she could tell me them all, and cold nights under the stars always makes for a cuddly time. Then I went in and sat by their fire and wound down. The Upton kiddos kept asking me if I was okay, and people always do that whenever I become really quiet and just think to myself. I don't know why, but whatever, I can deal. Then I slept on their floor fully clothed in my suit and tie. I woke up after everyone had left for church, and let myself out and went home, where I have been, diligently doing homework, and getting stuff done. And now, I am going to bed. Goodnight!

Emotions

So today, I am going to try to do what I was wanting to yesterday but didn't. I'm going to write all about the emotions of the day, and by reading this, you might think I am bipolar because they change so often.
The beginning of the day started out pleasantly, I was cheerful. I had tried getting Anneliese to stop working on math and draw pictures and today she finally did. She drew me a tree and a candy cane, then Evan Hiles one upped her and drew a picture of me, the balla. I spent the rest of class drawing pictures of Evan the Dance-Machine, and A Christmas scene. I really like Christmas and the mood I get in during it, so thats cheerful.
Then, only a period later, I become distraught. We only have until next wednesday for the canned food drive and we have brought in a pitiful amount. I wanted us to get more so I worked on lots of advertising and announcements to get the word out. But lots of things got messed up, thus the distraught.
Again, a period later I felt another emotion: Carelessness. I don't care for Powell's attitude towards me, so I talked back to him. As much as possible without getting in trouble, I actually got out, Well F you Mr. Powell. That was kind of nice, I felt pretty good.
During lunch becky and I chilled on the sofa in the StuCo room, which was empty, a new concept, but none-the-less, a good one. I like quiet, I am finding that more and more.
It seems my moods change by periods, which makes sense because I like some, and dislike others. So the next period I made up my math test. And for that i felt fantastic, because while it did take me a period and a quarter, I think I did quite well.
This leads me to my next emotion of blissful. I stayed after school to get Becky and we went to her house and I got into some of her perfume and made a big catastrophe upstairs, but the good thing is now my sweatshirt smells really nice, just a little too strong. But we went to grocery outlet and went shopping for canned food and I got a glimpse of what married life will be like with her. She is funny, and shopping with her is interesting. But I enjoyed it, and then we went home and I did some stuff at my house until I went back to hers, and thats when I learned Piano from her Dad, Kevin. He is rad, let me tell you, he asked if I wanted to learn some piano and I said yes I did, and he taught me the first 7 notes of the circle of fifths, and so now I am going to learn piano from him. Its going to be rad. Overall, I would have to say today was good, much more feeling of gayety, yes thats a word, not from you Jake, but from the Great Gatsby, describing the consistent happy attitude. goodnight!

Like leaves from modern trees

This is like the fourth blog i have put a lyric from a song as the title, only because i am thinking about them while i write this.
So today is going to be something new, less about what happened, more about how I felt. Its the perfect day to start this because today i felt crappy. I was all sick-feeling, with dizziness, and all that fun stuff. So today couldn't be great with that. It was nice that i wasn't feeling good just for the fact i could leave early, and during a test at that, so I didn't have to finish it yet.
So I left school early, feeling crummy, not able to walk well, and I got home and fell asleep. It was about 1:10, maybe, and I slept until 7. Thats 5 hours and fifty minutes, for all of you who don't like to do math. I woke up feeling better, but once I got up, I felt like falling back down. I didn't though, I got up and ate, and read, something I haven't done in a while. It was nice, i got through chapter three of the Great Gatsby. After I finished the third chapter I turned on the tube just in time for the OC. I have missed the last few episodes of that puppy. Its gotten much better, everyone has someone else, so all the characters have somebody and now there is this new girl who is very attractive, and supposedly smart. Its about time we get some of those, and where are all these here at Glencoe? I think we ought to fill the school with them. Then I could get a girlfriend, and life would be good, plus, we'd work on homework so I could get better grades than I am now.
Thats basically the highlights of my day. I don't know how good i was about specific times of emotion and such. But I will try this way of doing it again. Unless the few people who read it like the other way better.
Oh I also got this excellent song from Gustav, of 94.7. I emailed him and told him i wanted the mix of Green Day and Oasis, and he sent it to me. Its really good. You could come over and listen to it if you want. See ya.

After all, you're my wonderwall

Today was not too shabby. The morning started out late, I got up less than thirty minutes before I had to be at school and that caused me to be a two minutes late to Math, which will lose me 5 extra credit points I believe. Darn! I need those too!
After Math I had StuCo, and didn't do a whole lot there except....burnt a hole in Luke's English paper. Becky had just finished microwaving her Cinabon's for Soph. senate, when I decided to put Lukes paper in it. I put it in for l5 seconds and Scott Heter told me it wouldn't ignite, I said it would. I won. It was rad, you should try it sometime. Then i gave it back to Luke, he wasn't extremely pleased but whatever, it was worth it. Then came English where none other than Mr. Muir was our substitute, so we did absolutely nothing.
Afterschool i came home and took a refresher nap, that was pretty nice, then I went to Goodwill to find myself a suit for Winter Formal. I did in fact find one, for $20! So eat that Mr. Formal and girls who have to buy dresses! I will be paying for dinner and I paid for the tickets, so I think its fair that I should pay less somewhere. Then I went to the Uptons to show them my sweet new buy, and Becky and I ended up hanging out for a bit. We talked more about our marriage- for all of you who are not clued in, we are getting married- and then I left.
I have been working on studying for AP Gov, as well as practicing my tap dance for tomorrow's practice. I'm going to ace the test and impress the rest. ha! that rhymes, but doesn't make sense, oh well. Now I am just blabbering so goodnight.
Also. First time ever shout out to Christine Hall, a good friend of mine and my date to Prom this year. You are very cool Christine, and thank you for making my night yesterday. Everyone else, keep the funk alive. Peace.

Here's lookin at you Kid!

So today was our Winter Week Assembly and man was it good! I got to introduce the assembly and then I got to play Rick in our little rendition of Casablanca. It was super sweet because at the end I got to dance with all the girl court members, but it was actually me dancing, and them standing there watching me dance to Usher's "YEAH!" which was pretty much my best display of dance moves ever, and people agreed. hahaha. I am pretty excited for Winter Formal, because I will get my groove on fo serious there. Thanks to the assembly I missed almost all of school. And what I was there for was useless.
Afterschool, this time it was 3:30 like the youngin's because I had to make-up a math test, I went into the drama hall with Becky and waited for Jeff so I could ask him for help on math. While I waited kids kept asking me if I was doing the tap class that they were having today and asked if I'd do the musical. I didn't plan on staying or doing the musical or anything, but i wanted to play around with some tap shoes so I got a pair and starting messing around. Then the instructor came and some of my peeps said I should stay and do it. So I did and I learned the part that everyone will audition with for the musical, so despite my inability to sing I might try out. All that new movement killed my knees and they are still hurting, but it was fun. So now I bid you farewell.

CRAPPY INTERNET DELETES MY BLOG BEFORE IT GETS POSTED!!!

So I had typed a good blog that tells a lot about what happened today and the internet killed it and made it disappear. So let me start all the way over...
Today was yet another unproductive day. I got up late, went to the bank and got money for later use, then stopped at the Uptons house, played with Juba for about 10 minutes which included a nice brushing over, and then started babysitting my little cousin. We made paper airplanes and played video games until i wanted to go shopping for myself. We went out and I got some freaking sweet Kenneth Cole Reaction black dress shoes and some ridiculously fashionable pin-stripe pants. Not to mention two pairs of very comfortable dress socks. After that we came home and ate dinner then I had to leave to finish up some recording for the Winter Formal skit which took no more than 5 seconds. Then on my way home I stopped by the Uptons again saw that Jeff was on the phone and Becky was gone and then left. I went back home and tried to get down to business but for some reason I absolutely cannot process anything I read these days. I tried to read the AP Government book and take notes but I would read a sentence and have to re-read it like five times before it would make sense. I didn't feel like doing this so I quit. Then Jeff called and I went over to his house again. This was like the fourth time today, which was neat, because I am pretty sure thats a record. But I played guitar while he played piano and we both played "Title and Registration" by Death Cab for Cutie, which sounded really good. Then just as I was leaving Becky came home and so I had to stay for a bit longer to see her. She got her haircut and it looks really nice so anyone who sees her ought to make note of this. We talked for a bit about dance team and how they are doing Hotel California, which will be really neat, so once again, anyone who can make it out, go to the State Dance Competition because its going to be good. Then I left, and now I am here, re-writing my post and doing a pretty good job at it. So now I will post it and it shall work, or I quit.

Not so Final Farewell

Today was sluggish. I woke up after getting only 6 hours of sleep and basically slept through Calculus. I then went to StuCo and continued my sluggish state until afterschool when I got into making these fake candy bar boxes for the winter formal skit. I made some pretty realistic ones and for that I am proud.
Afterschool today was where most stuff happened. I stayed until about 5:30 at school to keep decorating, and then I went to Natalee's going away party. It's too bad she is leaving, she is a fun person. The party we had made me realize that I actually don't enjoy large groups. I like my small closer-knit groups a lot more. I felt out of place because I was not espeically great friends with anyone there who wasn't pre-occupied entertaining the other people. Then I left and watched a movie, When Harry Met Sally, a chick-flick, with Anneliese and came to the realization that I need to stop kidding myself. I need to stop any connection with cuddling or whatever because it only messes things up. Its turning out harder to say that do, but I figure it needs to be done. What I need is to stop moping about my girl situation. Anything I have with anyone right now is not a relationship and won't be, I won't have a relationship anytime soon but i want one really bad. I am tired of the crappy situation I am in. I wish, actually, I could just forget about liking girls and just enjoy lifes other pleasures, but that too is proving to be very difficult.

Turn it up

Today was another productive day. I made up three tests in Human Bio and did well on each one so i am very much caught up in that class. Then yearbook I got praised for my Powder Puff pictures from Mr. Murdock, that was nice. And in AP Gov. I found I am pretty liberal. I was tied for number two most liberal kids, according to this quiz. I definitely don't picture myself as that liberal, I would certainly say I swing to the left of moderate on most views but not nearly as much as it showed.
After school I made up some math homework and studied for the math test tomorrow, it would really help if people were more willing to share what was on the test. I mean, if I was at school one day and a friend of mine wasn't I would remember what was on it and tell them to study it and give as much detail on the actual questions as possible. I figure if they have the ability to do better, by all means take it. I won't feel cheated because I didn't do as well. Thats pretty lame when people feel the need to be the best, like last year. So in APUSH last year Monnier accidentally made a mistake with the extra credit she gave to every one and made it so everyone in the class had an "A". My grade was a "B" before-hand and I was very excited. But these kids who already had A's felt like they were being cheated and insisted that she not add the extra credit so that not everyone has an A. That pissed me off. I would drop an F*bomb if i didn't know that some people I know actually read this, because I just found it to be absurd. Who the heck cares, you know you did well, why must everyone else look lower than you? Everyone took the class and everyone took the test, just be happy for others. Gosh that makes me mad. I could care less if everyone in the entire school had A's even if I was the only one who deserved it. It doesn't matter to me at all.
Anyways, I then went and recorded the assembly some more and beefed up what we previously had to a fairly decent skit. I get to play Rick, thats going to be neat. I am pretty excited, my voice is a lot different than I thought it was, but I guess I had known that from previous recordings.
After the recordings and then dinner, i went to El Upiton House, and hung out with Jeff and Becky. Then Anneliese came over so she and jeff baked some baked good, and Becky and I talked about getting married and our wedding. I have some sweet ace ideas for my marriage let me tell you. Its going to be good, and she is going to get the 20K platinum wedding ring with a huge diamond on it. I have it all planned out. So tonight was enjoyable, I will continue the pleasure until I hit the sack, goodnight.

Blowing all the other kids away

Well, the reason for my lack of blogging last night was I was asleep. Yes, i fell asleep around 9:15. Meaning I got just about 11 hours of sleep. Main events worth mentioning, yesterday I went to powederpuff as a photography and took some sweet pics for Yearbook and watched an intense game. The juniors were apparently pretty brutal because girls kept coming back swearing and saying they were going to kill the junior girls. The game got pretty rough at times, in fact, there were at least 4 tackles; its supposed to be flag football. So then i came home and fell asleep.
Which brings us into today, I felt well rested so I got to school early, did some Canned Food Drive stuff and then class started. I think the amount of sleep accounted for my especially cheery day. We had an academic seminar in English which I was unable to prepare for because of my falling asleep last night, but I actually was able to input some good comments every once and a while and it turned out well. Then I came home and actually got on some homework. I have caught myself up on English, AP Gov, and as soon as I take my test for Human Bio tomorrow morning, I will be all caught up. Except for Math, I still have to make-up that test, which will be hard. But yipee I made everything up and did any homework I could think of tonight. A very accomplishing day. I feel good about today, I will rate it a great day. Goodnight.